Failure

If at first you do not succeed try and try again.
It doesn't matter how many times you get knocked down,

It matters how many times you get back up. 

2004 I was a novice Draftsman.

2005 Went to college for drafting. Failed out

2006 was let go as a draftsman

2006 started working as a Subway Artist in Beaumont. went days without eating, owner refused to give us hours while trying to change our hours to pay us less. Stole to eat. First time I almost took my life. 

2006 returned to Buna. Got a job at Valero movied in with high school friends, from there to Movieland, from there to the school, from to Faustos, from there to Subway in Buna. Friends moved on had to relocate with someone I only barely knew.
He decided to move and I couldn't afford to live on my own so moved to Lumberton from there from there moved to Lumberton with the person and another guy. Got a job at Subway in Walmart. Got accused of stealing when a drop came up missing. They cashed my check without my permission. Contacted the government, the company was already under investigation for Fraud and other things. They were told to return my money, fired later for switching shifts with someone. Room mate who I had supported for a few months when he couldn't work, kicked me out while I was looking for a new job. Second time I almost took my life.
Moved in with my Ex for a Month then back to Buna. Got a job at Shell, met an amazing friend who we bounded over a book I was reading. Got a chance to leave buna again. Took it. Went to Brownsville then Houston. Had the time of my life. Tried college again. Failed. Almost got a job at Sprouts, was passed on for a transfer employee. 

Worked at a Subway there, Manager was a drug abuser. She quit on us, me and another lady stepped up and ran the store. They brought the manager back. We got into it over health code being broke. Was let go and then rehired at another store they owned. Manager liked me and told me they planned to just fire me again once they got more people. I bailed instead of having being fired on my record. Time was not on my side and I was faced with a choice of coming back to buna or being homeless. Buna it was. Came back got a job at Fausto's again. Third time.... Took a job working tear out after Harvey. Was almost great until the drunk we worked for decided he would rather drink than actually work and lost us our jobs and ripped me and my dad off over 1k. 

Went to work at Dairy Queen, Then Brookshires, Then Sweetie Pies, Then Brookshires, then Family Dollar, Then Papa Johns and now Myself sorta. I have failed more times than I can count. I haven't even included the attempts to work out, start business, Youtube, Streaming, a million hobbies. I have lost countless friends. I have had someone kill themselves on webcam while I was watching. I had someone fake their death to manipulate a community I was part of. I have been taken advantage of in ways I will never feel comfortable with. But I have gotten back up. I have had help from many people. I have lost more than I have gained, but I am still here. Things most people right off have saved my life. Gaming friends have stopped me from doing dumb things. I spent hours today bawling my eyes out. Why I don't even know. The feels were really. Some people say the most important step is the first. Its not. It isn't the second step, it isn't the last step. The most important step is the Next. 

In 2004-2006 I met some of the best friends. They were from a small game called Aegis Online. Viperstrike, BlackAmber Maws, Helone, Greywolf, Octavia, Noctame, and countless others who are no longer around. In 2006 I met some of the most amazing people from World of Warcraft Tandy is the only one left. In 2012 I met one of my best friends. Jay and his wife. that same year I met my favorite British Australian Cait. I found my love for Dungeon and Dragons, my love for youtubing, streaming and expressing myself. In 2020 I found my love for cooking. Passion for creating. In 2025 I learned what I already knew. Failure isn't the same as losing. Failure is just the step before the next. 

Echo 1.3 3/7/22 Workout

 Greetings and Salutations, 

How hail the. Today was a ball buster of a workout day. Started with getting on the treadmill, then I did what I call a Blitz. As there is no real name for it. In a way it is sorta a Full Pyramid but different.

I start with a weight say 75 lb. 10 reps, drop the weight to 65. 10 reps. Drop 55, 45, 35, 25, 20. Little to no rest between each set. Just enough to change weights. Short rest. Then reverse 20, 25, ect back up to 75 or as high as I can go. Then moderate rest, like walk a minute go grab drink you know. Then comes the part that hurts. 85 lb up to 10 reps. 95 lb up to 10 reps and I keep going until I can't get above 5 reps. 

So for context Today I did what I call close grip lat pulls. 85 lb. 10 reps, 95 lb. 7 reps, 105 lb. 3 reps. Done. Long Break 3 or 4 minutes probs more. Move to the next thing. I learned part of this from a boxer who was at a gym for a short time. His name was Josh. He took the time to come over and be like yo you working out wrong come with me fat one. Paraphrased of course. I still work out wrong, but I know a bit more about targeting muscles and I try to keep it pretty good. Wish we had more time to work out together. He wanted me on the treadmill more but I walk a lot now so I think it is okay. I got a lot of fat on my arm, but I can see and feel muscle. I don't want to get bulky. I just that is not me. I am only really getting into this because I would like to add a bit of bulk.

 So if you look at Will's Workout Tracker You can see my numbers. Added the treadmill since I am off today I won't be work walking, but who knows. Might be Wal-Mart walking lol. So Also things might seem strange if you look at that. so 75 - 20 is the start here end here weights. Sets are how many times it takes to get from those points. For example because once you hit 25 and are going down is a 5 lb. decrease; where as 25+ is a 10lb increase. The only machine I know this is different on is the Pec Fly. I don't know if it changes at some point, but it is always a 5lb change through 45. So 45,40,35,30,25,20 ect. Also Shoulder stopped me on the Pec Fly from going back up to 45 and doing more. I don't want to chance it. Questions. Know the real names of things I am doing? Drop a line. <3 Have a great day. 

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Life Today

I know I am going to hear the normal, you are doing great, you got this and all that and yes I want to hear it and it helps a lot, but the past week has been hell. We lost two people at work. One quit one was fired over BS. I don't see the other night crew guy lasting much longer after all this. As for me, I started up doing this side business because I wanted to dig a way out of this job and I wanted to give people better food options.

Back on the topic at work, there is a girl I really like, but she not interested in dating right now possibly ever who knows. I know this so I just told her how I felt in a text and was like I just need to get it off my chest. I try to be as good of a friend as I can. Yesterday one of the guys from up front came back and he tends to talk about a lot of random stuff and I tend to tune him out. This was one of the times I shouldn't have, cause he was saying one of the cashiers wanted 4 boudan balls. Well she yelled at me, I retaliated by doing the classic cat hissing fit instead of going off about her yelling at me. I was in the wrong on both accounts, but I hear enough yelling as is in my daily life and I just snapped. Than spent a good 3 minutes in the cooler tearing up. We didn't talk the rest of the day and generally when she leaves she says goodbye to everyone well except me this time. So, yeah that ruined and crushed my day. Than we have the salsa problem and that has really crushed today and this whole week is just me wanting to crawl into a hole. I just emptied my fridge of pretty much everything I have in there and trying to find some silver lining and if I should even keep this business going. A popular thing in YouTube is 99 comments can be super positive and uplifting, but you will always remember the 100th comment that was negative. It is stupid, irrational, but damn does it just burn you to your soul and I am a ginger I don't have one. 

Theorycrafted: Spellslingers / Spellbreakers

    In a time long long ago, or if you are playing Classic World of Warcraft not so long ago... in fact right now. Mages and Priest both shared a talent called Wand Specialization. Now in retail, wands are gone as far as I know. The Spellslinger is a spec design for the Mage based on wand based builds from other games such as Path of Exile and Dungeon and Dragons. The idea turns the mage into a Magical auto attack class. Now this said it could work with Crossbows and maybe bows if wands are not wanted to be added back to the game. This would give them another purpose instead of just being like all loot which is hunter loot.

    The idea of the class for me falls into having a magical based hunter really. Embedding your shots with elemental or arcane magic, using blink to reposition quickly. This said it could very well be a proper Hunter Spec as well. 

    In that case I bring in the idea of the Spellbreaker as being another option for Mages. A tanking spec for mages. We already have lore about them in the game and while they do not have a ton of abilities from warcraft 3 it is easy to look at other units inside of World of Warcraft for inspiration. Looking at the Silvermoon Spellbreaker from Isle of Thunder shows them wearing what appears to be cloth armor and wielding a shield. Using a sword, but could also wield a glaive similar to Demon Hunters. 

    We also have some ideas from the World of Warcraft RPG which is non-canon, but still leads to some ideas of the spec. So many interesting ideas could come from this.

    Thank you for reading, tomorrow lets jump into bed with another spec idea that would love to beat people up with a shield. Until than, stay classy while letting me know what you think of my madness.