SMITE - Athena - League Arena - Match 65

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SMITE - Athena - Arena - Match 64

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SMITE - Athena - Arena - Match 63

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I feel like I am about to explode. My mind races at 300 miles an hour and I have no way to relieve it. World of Warcraft was an old out lite for my thoughts then I moved onto. Then I got into making my own game and then ect ect D&D was my last bastion of putting my thoughts into. I am having no luck with a job and I am about to just explode. I just am at a lose of what to do.

Regret

       This is a word many of us have face and some of us fight with on a constant struggle of what our heart feels. I have so much of it built up from the years that I feel it tears me apart some times. Most of my regret comes in the form of things I did not do. I regret never telling the first person I loved how I felt. She was roughly 3 years older then me at the time and I was only in maybe 3rd 4th grade. She moved away a few years later and to this day I regret so much about not ever telling her. She said the sweetest thing to me at a Newton Camp Candle light thing we did as well. I have considered telling her now but I fear there is little point now.
        But that is neither here nor there, The reason I write about regret is because it is heavy on my heart. I regret not being a better friend, I almost regret coming to where I am now because while I have great friends here. I miss so many people. I am living with friends but yet I feel so alone. It has become clear that it is hard for me to fit into this world. I am a computer geek, a gaming geek, a minor you tube personality and even though sure hundreds of people hear my voice, watch me do what ever I do. I feel like I am missing something. The babbling of a lunatic I claim this is if anyone says something about it. Perhaps I have went insane in my "old" age.